ADJUSTED

I HAVE BEEN NOTICING THESE PAST FEW WEEKS, THAT FINALLY AFTER 3 YEARS I HAVE FINALLY BECOME VERY PEACEFUL WITH MYSELF, AND MY "SPECIAL FEATURES"
JUST THE OTHER DAY I REALIZED THAT THERE ARE ONLY 3 THINGS THAT I HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED YET FROM MY PREVIOUS LIFE,
-1. DRIVING
-2. WORKING
-3. BRAIDING HAIR
BESIDES THESE THINGS I CAN NOW DO EVERYTHING I USED TO, THIS REALIZATION, WAS QUITE REWARDING TO MYSELF, YES THERE ARE THINGS THAT I'VE HAD TO LEARN DIFFERENTLY, BUT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THEM ANYWAY, CONSIDERING WHERE I CAME FROM, THIS IS PRETTY REMARKABLE, I STILL REALLY DESPISE MY LEFT ARM, AND CHOOSE TO TAKE A BREAK FROM THE BIOFEEDBACK, I KNOW I CAN GO BACK WHENEVER I FEEL READY TO, BUT I HAD REACHED A POINT WHERE THE PROGRESS WAS SO MINIMAL, I WAS JUST GETTING TO DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF THAT I NEEDED TO EASE THAT STRESS, SO I HAVEN'T BEEN IN AT LEAST 6 MONTHS, BUT SURPRISINGLY I HAVE NOTICED TINY MUSCLE DEVELOPMENT ANYWAY NOTHING OF USE BUT ITS STILL THERE, I'M NOT GIVING UP BY ANY MEANS MEARLY WORKING ON IT MY OWN. MY P.T. ASSURES ME THAT WHATEVER MY MUSCLES DID LEARN THEY WILL NEVER FORGET, SO I DON'T LOOSE ANY PROGRESS. BUT I NOTICED THAT BY TAKING THE TIME OFF IT SEEMED TO RELIEVE SOME OF MY DISCOURAGMENT I WAS FEELING BY NOT GETTING IT TO WORK, AFTER TRYING SO HARD FOR SO LONG NOT TO MENTION THE MONEY THAT I'M NOT SPENDING ON IT
GOD BLESS, TRULY TAMI

HAPPY RE-BIRTHDAY TO ME

*** 3 YEARS OF MY NEW LIFE AUGUST 31ST WAS MY SURVIVOR ANNIVERSARY, IN 3 YEARS I HAVE COME SO FAR I WENT FROM BEING AS COMPETENT AS A 1 YEAR OLD,TO BECOMING A STAY-AT-HOME MOM TO MY BEAUTIFUL ANGELS
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO TO BE WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT I AM DOING PRETTY DAMN AWESOME FOR A "SPECIALTY WOMAN", I CANT SAY I'M HAPPY IN THIS BODY, BUT I AM GETTING BETTER AT JUST BEING COMFORTABLE, I'M HOPING AS ALWAYS THAT IF I JUST GET TO COMFORTABLE IN THIS BODY, GOD MIGHT THINK I'VE LEARNED WHATEVER LESSON HE'S TEACHING ME, AND CAN CROSS MY NAME OFF THE TO DO LIST WISHFUL THINKING I KNOW
JUST 2 NIGHTS AGO MY FAMILY TOOK ME TO AN AMPHITHEATER FOR A SHOW, AND I WAS STRUGGLING WALKING DOWN THE STEEP STAIRS TO MY SEAT, AND I TOLD MY UNCLE "THAT I WANTED TO SCREAM", CUZ I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL AGAIN, HE SAID INSTANTLY, " HEY BE HAPPY YOU CAN DO THIS MUCH" HE'S EXACTLY RIGHT SOME DAYS I LOOSE TRACK OF SIMPLE THINGS LIKE THAT, I WAS GRATEFUL TO BE AT LEAST THAT GOOD, CONSIDERING, 3 YEARS AGO DOCTORS DIDN'T TRUST ME TO BREATHE ON MY OWN, WELL NEENER NEENER DOCS THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHO THEY WERE DEALING WITH, I HAVE MANY INCREDIBLE GUARDING ANGELS WITH ME DAILY
BOTH MY BABIES STARTED SCHOOL LAST MONTH HOW DID THAT HAPPEN SO FAST, I GET TO WALK LILLI TO HER SCHOOL,BUT I MAKE SURE TO HOLD MY HEAD HIGH AND SMILE TO ANYONE THAT MIGHT STARE, I KNOW ITS JUST CURIOSITY, I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT BECAUSE OF THIS, MY GIRLS ARE SO COMPATIONATE
GOD BLESS ALL
LOVE TAMI

CLEAR THE ROADS

THOSE LOVELY ANGELS, THAT DRIVE ME PLACES WILL BE PLEASED TO KNOW, I TOOK ANOTHER DRIVING EVALUATION LAST WEEK, IT HAS BEEN JUST OVER A YEAR SINCE MY FIRST TEST, AND I DID AWESOME THIS TIME, SO AS I'M ABOUT TO BE 30, I'M READY TO START DRIVING SCHOOL,BESIDES FIXING MY GIRLS HAIR DRIVING IS ON THE TOP 5 TO DO LIST, BUT MANY THINK I DON'T DRIVE BECAUSE OF BEING 1 ARMED, BUT I'VE REALLY BEEN WAITING FOR MY BRAIN TO HEAL, MY VISION IS SCREWY, AND I'M VERY JUMPY, BUT I'M SLOWLY GETTING BETTER, EVERY LITTLE STEP COUNTS, I'M FULLY AWARE, THAT DRIVING LIKE A NORMAL PERSON, IS STILL IN THE DISTANCE, BUT I'VE GOT TO START SOME WHERE, UNPOPULATED AREA, OF COURSE THE GIRLS HAVE NO MEMORY OF ME FROM BEFORE, SO THE IDEA OF MOM DRIVING IS UN HEARD OF, AND I'VE TOLD THEM THEY WONT BE RIDING WITH MOM FOR A VERY LONG TIME
I MAY NOT DRIVE YET BUT MY WALKING STAMINA, IS GETTING MUCH BETTER,I SAY STAMINA BECAUSE, I HAVE TERRIBLE FORM, I LOOK FUNNY, BUT I'M OK WITH THAT BY NOW, I'M HAPPY TO BE INDEPENDENT.
MY JOURNEY CONTINUES
GOD BLESS
LOVE TAMI

RELEARN

AS I WAS JUST MAKING A PEANUT-BUTTER/JELLY SANDWICH, AND TRYING TO BRACE THE PLATE WITH MY HIP SO I CAN SPRED THE PEANUT-BUTTER, IT OCCURED TO ME THAT I HAVE HAD NEARLY 3 YEARS IN THIS NEW AND COMPLICATED BODY, I HAVE ADAPTED TO BEING IN MY WORLD WITH 1 HAND, SO MUCH THAT AT TIMES I ACTUALLY HAVE TO REMEMBER WHAT LIFE IS LIKE WITH 2 HANDS, I CAN HARDLY WAIT TO "RELEARN" SO MANY THINGS WITH 2 HANDS AGAIN LIKE GETTING DRESSED WITH 2 HANDS OR LEARN TO TIE SHOES AGAIN BRADE HAIR, AND DO A PONYTAIL DRIVE, OH HOW MY LIST COULD GO ON AND ON, I WANT TO HOLD A NEW BABY WHILE STANDING UP, A DOCTOR SEUSE THOUGHT COMES TO MIND "OH THE WONDERFUL THINGS"
IN 3 LONG YEARS, I FEEL LIKE I HAD TO START BACK AT ABOUT 10 MONTHS OLD, AND COMPLETELY START OVER WITH THE MOST BASIC TASKS, AND YET AT 3 YEARS OLD I STILL CAN'T CLAP, I'VE ALWAYS HAD A SENSE OF HUMOR, AND I CAN SURELY LAUGH AT MYSELF, BUT SERIOUSLY, ONCE MY HAND/ARM COMES BACK, I WILL SEE THE WORLD THROUGH NEW EYES, AND I JOKE, BUT I REALLY MEAN IT, I WILL WAVE AT EVERY PERSON I SEE, JUST LIKE A BABY WOULD, I WRITE ALL THESE ENTRIES NOT SO MUCH FOR ANYONE ELSE, BUT FOR ME TO LOOK BACK AT, ONCE I'VE CONQUERED MY WORLD
GOD BLESS
LOVE TAMI

bring me a miracle

SO ALBERTS CO-WORKER ASKED IF HE BELIEVED IN MIRACLES, ALBERT SAID PROVE IT, SO THEY ASKED IF THEY COULD PRAY FOR A MIRACLE FOR MY LEFT SIDE
I AM ALWAYS GRATEFUL FOR PRAYERS, AND HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE, SO ABSOLUTELY ASK AWAY I THOUGHT, WELL WE'VE ALL SEEN THOSE SHOWS WHERE A CHURCH HEALS SOMEONE MIRACULOUSLY RIGHT I WASN'T QUITE EXPECTING THE WHOLE PROCESS, I GOT TO THEIR CHURCH AND ABOUT 20 PEOPLE ALL SPOKE SPANISH EXCEPT 1 TRANSLATOR THEY GOT OIL ON THEIR HANDS PLACED THEM ON ME INSTANTLY I FELT OVERWHELMED WITH WARM ENERGY AND TEARS STARTED FALLING THEY CHANTED/SANG AND PRAYED INTENSLY FOR ABOUT 30 MIN THEY HAD EXPLAINED THAT THEY ARE JUST ASKING GOD FOR A MIRACLE NOT PERFORMING ONE, AND THAT I JUST NEEDED TO HAVE FAITH IN THE LORD TO HEAL ME
IT WAS ABSOLUTELY POWERFUL, ONCE THEY STOPPED PRAYING, AND MOVED THEIR HANDS AWAY MY WHOLE BODY JUST FELT FLOATY AND WARM COMPLETELY PAIN FREE IT'S REALLY HARD TO PUT INTO WORDS HOW I FELT
NOW I TRULY BELIEVE MY LIFE IS ALREADY A MIRACLE, BUT IT CAN'T HURT TO ASK FOR A MORE SPECIFIC ONE MAINLY FOR USE OF MY ARM/HAND,NO MIRACLE TO REPORT JUST YET, BUT I'M HOPEFUL, AND WILL BE PATIENT, IN GODS TIME MY ARM WILL RETURN.
IN ALL IT WAS A REMARKABLE EXPIRIENCE, FOR MYSELF AND MY LITTLE FAMILY, THE GIRLS WERE JUST SHOCKED AT THE WHOLE THING, LILLI SAID" I WAS CRYING AND DIDN'T KNOW WHY MOM" ELLA SAID "OKAY MOM WE PRAYED WHERE IS YOUR HAPPY HAND?"

TRAVELING

I HAVE NEGLECTED POSTING, DUE TO MY BUSY LIFE
IN MAY, THE GIRLS,AND I TOOK A TRIP TO CALIFORNIA WITH ALBERTS FAMILY
IN JUNE, THE GIRLS AND I FLEW TO NORTH DAKOTA TO STAY WITH MY MOM-TERESA FOR 2 WEEKS
I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY ABOUT BOTH TRIPS, BUT NOT ENOUGH TIME TO SIT AND TYPE IT ALL
:CALIFORNIA: I HAD BEEN ONCE BEFORE, A YEAR AND A HALF AGO, AND IT WAS VERY REWARDING FOR ME TO COMPARE MY RECOVERY FROM THE FIRST TRIP AND SECOND, SINCE I LIVE WITH MY BODY DAILY, I TEND TO FORGET THAT I'M STILL GETTING BETTER/STRONGER, I FEEL STAGNANT IN MY RECOVERY, BUT ON THIS TRIP I HAD MADE A CHOICE FOR MYSELF THAT THERE WOULD BE NO EXCEPTIONS OR ALTERING ANYTHING FOR ME, I WAS GOING TO CONTINUE ON WITH EVERYONE ELSE JUST THE SAME I WAS EXHAUSTED, BUT MANAGED IT
:NORTH DAKOTA, WAS VERY INTIMIDATING TO ME, TO FLY WITH JUST ME AND 2 CHILDREN BEING THAT I SOMETIMES NEED JUST AS MUCH HELP AS A CHILD, SO WE ASKED FOR DISABILITY ASSISTANCE AMAZING I SHOULD'VE ALWAYS FLOWN THAT WAY THEY WERE GREAT THEY TOOK CARE OF ME AND MY GIRLS WERE SO GOOD AT BEHAVING AND STAYING RIGHT WITH ME
WE STAYED FOR 2 VERY FUN WEEKS, ALBERT WAS GOING TOTALLY NUTS WITHOUT US HOME,ON OUR TRIP TERESA'S HUSBAND TOOK ME FOR A DRIVING LESSON IN HIS BIG YUKON, NOW I HAVEN'T BEEN IN A DRIVERS SEAT FOR NEARLY 3 YEARS, AND JUST AS I SUSPECTED I AM EXTREMLY DANGEROUS MAKING LEFT-HAND TURNS BUT IT WAS VERY NEAT TO SEE WHAT I NEED TO WORK ON, TERESA HAD ME USE HER RIDING LAWN MOWER TO PRACTICE DRIVING OF SORTS I DROVE IT FINE BUT I'M AN AWFUL LANDSCAPER WE HAD A GREAT TIME MEETING EVERYONE TERESA KNOWS AND SEEING HER LIFE THERE, WE EVEN DROVE UP TO CANADA FOR A DAY JUST FOR FUN
I REALLY SHOULD'VE DONE 2 SEPARATE ENTRIES I HAVE SO MUCH TO SAY, AND MY GIRLS ARE GETTING INTO TROUBLE AS I TYPE, SO QUICK CLOSING
I'M SLOWLY TRYING THINGS OUTSIDE MY COMFORT ZONE
GOD BLESS
LOVE TAMI

SECOND VISIT TO SAN DIEGO

I HAD THE CHANCE TO GO TO SAN DIEGO WITH ALBERT'S FAMILY LAST WEEK I HAVE ONLY BEEN ONCE BEFORE ABOUT A YEAR AND A HALF AGO IT WAS MY FIRST TRIP AWAY AFTER MY STROKE I WAS QUITE APPREHENSIVE ABOUT GOING SINCE I WAS STILL ADJUSTING TO MYSELF
MY GOAL ON THIS TRIP WAS TO MAKE SURE NO EXCEPTIONS WERE NEEDED ON MY PART I WAS GOING TO BE EXACTLY LIKE EVERYONE ELSE AND KEEP UP NO MATTER WHAT, AND TO SEE MY PROGRESS SINCE THE FIRST VISIT WAS VERY REWARDING TO ME THE THINGS I HAD STRUGGLED WITH BEFORE HAD BEEN NO TROUBLE AT ALL
I DID KEEP UP WITH THE BUSY SCHEDULE IT WAS EXHAUSTING FOR SURE, BUT I WAS SET ON BEING JUST LIKE THE REST EVEN IF I AM MUCH SLOWER AND 1 HANDED NO ONE HAD TO HELP OR CHANGE ANY THING FOR ME ALTHOUGH I DID NEED SOME HELP WITH FIXING HAIR FOR MYSELF AND THE GIRLS I ONLY STAYED 4 DAYS, BUT THE GIRLS GRANDMA'S WANTED TO KEEP THEM LONGER SO THE GIRLS STAYED AN EXTRA 5 DAYS AND HAD A BLAST
SO THE WHOLE TRIP HELPED REMIND ME HOW FAR I'VE COME IN THE LAST 8 MONTHS OR SO I'VE BEEN GETTING DISCOURAGE FEELING LIKE I WAS IMPROVING AS MUCH AS I SHOULD BE

WHERE'S MY COACH?

SO IN MY HOUSE THE CONVERSATION OFTEN GOES STRAIGHT TO HOW I'M PROGRESSING OR HOW SOME THINK I SHOULD BE RECOVERING WHAT SHOULD I BE ABLE TO DO OR NOT DO AFTER YET ANOTHER LONG DEBATE OF THIS SAME OLD SAME OLD
SO I'M READY FOR A COACH THE KIND YOU SEE IN BOOT CAMP WITH A CLIPBOARD THAT SAYS OKAY TAMI NICE WORK OR THATS NOT GOOD ENOUGH TRY HARDER
I WISH THAT THEY ASSIGNED A PROGRESS COACH TO ME AT THE TIME I CAME HOME TO KEEP ME ON TRACK AND FOCUSSED, THE MORE TIME THAT PASSES MY MOTIVATION DRIFTS AWAY, AND FRUSTRATION GETS IN THE WAY: LOGICALLY I KNOW ITS THE WRONG PATH TO TAKE, AND EVEN AFTER 2 YEARS I'M STILL TRYING TO PROCESS ALL THAT HAS REALLY TAKEN PLACE
SO BASICALLY I WANT A REFEREE TO KEEP ME ON TRACK AND A COACH TO KICK MY ASS AND KEEP ME MOTIVATED FOR MY 25 YEARS I WOULD PICK A GOAL AND ACHIEVE IT NO QUESTIONS ASKED, AND NOW I SECOND GUESS EVERY THING I DON'T TRUST MY DECISION MAKING AND I'M JUST PLAIN SCARED OF MY BODY I'M A GROWN WOMAN YET HAVE SUCH DOUBT, IN MY DIRECTION HOW FORIEGN TO A WOMAN THAT WAS EXTREMELY SELF CONFIDANT AND HEAD STRONG
LIFE IS ODD
JUST MY THOUGHTS FOR THIS WEEK
GOD BLESS
TRULY TAMI

ITS WORKING MOM LOOK!

I HAVE BEEN DOING BIO-FEED-BACK TREATMENT ON MY LEFT ARM FOR WHAT FEELS LIKE FOREVER, BUT REALLY ONE AND A HAL YEARS THE PROGRESS IS PAINFULLY SLOW, AND DIFFICULT
MY MOST RECENT CHALLENGE HAS BEEN TRYING TO OPEN AND SHUT MY HAND THE MORE MUSCLES THAT ACTUALLY WORK THE LESS TENSE MY ARM IS
MY ELLA HAS NOTICED SHE SAW MY HAND LAYING OPEN ONE DAY, SO SHE STUCK HER FINGERS IN, AND I WANTED TO SHOW OFF SO I TIGHTENED MY HAND SHUT ON HER ITS EASIER TO SHUT MY HAND THAN OPEN IT SHE SPOKE WITH EXCITEMENT" MOM YOUR HAND IS GETTING HAPPY" THE GIRLS CALL IT MY SAD HAND THEY SAY MY WHOLE LEFT SIDE IS VERY SAD, AND IT IS
FOR ME TO SEE HER SO EXCITED FOR ME WAS VERY REWARDING THEY TRULY NOTICE ALL MY LITTLE IMPROVEMENTS
AND NOW I AM ABLE TO PULL MY FINGERS OPEN, AND HAVE THEM PUT STUFF IN IT FOR ME TO HOLD ONTO ITS NOT USEFUL, BUT IT IS VERY NEAT TO DO SOMETHING WITH IT.
PRACTICE PRACTICE MOM.

I HAVE BEEN GOING TO THERAPY EVERY OTHER WEEK TO SAVE ON COST, BUT WE DECIDED TO GO BACK TO MY SHOULDER LAST WEEK JUST TO DOUBLE CHECK THE MUSCLE STRENGTH FROM BEFORE, AND SURE ENOUGH IT WAS JUST FINE.
I JOKE THAT ONCE MY HAND DOES WORK I'M JUST GOING TO WAVE AT EVERONE, AND I REALLY WILL EVEN IF I LOOK SILLY I WILL BE SO EXCITED TO SHOW MY PROGRESS, LIKE A BABY LEARNING TO WAVE
I KNOW MY GIRLS WON'T MIND.
GOD BLESS
TRULY TAMI.

MY GRAND CANYON

I THOUGHT I SHOULD WRITE THIS STORY WHILE ITS FRESH IN MY HEAD

MY ARM THERAPY MOVED TO A NEW BUILDING, WHICH HAS A GLASS ELEVATOR, AND YESTERDAY WE JUST HAPPENED TO HAVE OUR STROKE SUPPORT MEETING UPSTAIRS FOR THE FIRST TIME GETTING ON THE ELEVATOR AT FLOOR LEVEL WAS JUST AS HARD AS IS ANY ELEVATOR FOR ME,
BUT TO EXIT THE ELEVATOR ON THE SECOND FLOOR WAS QUITE DIFFICULT SINCE I COULD SEE DOWN,IN ALL IT WAS ALMOST 5 MINUTES JUST TO STEP OFF THROUGH THE WHOLE MEETING MY STOMACHE WAS TURNING KNOWING I WOULD HAVE TO GO DOWN AGAIN, MY GRANDMA ANN WAS WITH ME AND SO VERY PATIENT SO SHE WAS HOLDING MY HAND TO GET ON WHILE 2 ELDERLY WOMEN WITH WALKERS WAITED BEHIND ME SEEING IF THEY COULD HELP, WELL THE DOOR STARTED TO CLOSE ON ANN ALL THE WHILE I AM FROZEN WITH FEAR AND SHAKING WITH ANXIETY
ANYONE WOULD THINK I WAS STEPPING OVER THE GRAND CANYON, NOT ONTO AN ELEVATOR 1 FLOOR UP ONCE I GOT ON I HAD TO CONCENTRATE ON NOT LOOKING OUT THE WINDOW OR CRYING OVER MY EMBARASSMENT SERIOUSLY IT'S JUST NOT RIGHT TO PANIC OVER SUCH THINGS
ONCE I GOT OFF I WAS SHAKINGSO MUCH YOU'D THINK I JUST FOUGHT A SHARK, MY BEAUTIFUL GRANDMA SAYS" LETS DO IT AGAIN" TO CONQUER THE FEAR I THOUGHT I MIGHT PUKE
"NOT TODAY" I SAID THEN OFF TO THERAPY, MY P.T. STEVE IS SO KIND AND TRIES TO MAKE ME FEEL COMFORTABLE ABOUT MY BRAIN TROUBLES, AS WE WERE LEAVING MY GRANDMA SAYS SHE WANTS ME TO TRY THE ELEVATOR 10 TIMES TILL I'M OVER IT WHICH MAKES PERFECT SENSE, BUT I'LL HAVE TO WAIT TILL MY TRAUMA FADES I KNOW THERE WILL BE A DAY THAT I WON'T CRY OVER AN ELEVATOR OR HEIGHTS BUT FOR NOW I DID COME HOME AND CRY IT MAKES ME SCREAM INSIDE I'VE GOT TO BE TOUGHER THAN THAT. A WHOLE ENTRY ABOUT FEAR
IN THE MEEN TIME I HAVE BEEN WALKING THE GIRLS TO A NEW SPANISH PRESCHOOL THEY LOVE IT AND I'M HAVING FUN WATCHING THEM AND WE ALL LEARN SPANISH IT'S JUST WONDERFUL.

AFTER THE HOLIDAYS

WE HAVE LEARNED IN THE PAST THAT THE KIDS GET SPOILED BY PLENTY AT CHRISTMAS SO ALBERT AND I USUALLY GET THEM 1 BIG ITEM AND LRT THEM ENJOY THE REST OF THEIR GIFTS FROM AUNTS UNCLES GRANDMA'S AND SUCH
UNFORTUNATLY ALBERT LOST HIS JOB AT THE FIRST OF DECEMBER THE COMPANY SHUT DOWN AND OF CORSE I'M NOT WORKING YET SO THANK HEAVENS FOR MY DISABILITY INCOME, SO WE KNEW CHRISTMAS WAS NOT ABOUT GIFTS THIS YEAR I'M ODDLY AT PEACE WHEN IT COMES TO FINANCES I JOKE THAT THEY REMOVED MY WORRY SWITCH WHEN THEY CLEARED OUT MY BRAIN OTHER THAN ELEVATORS AND HEIGHTS NOT MUCH FREAKS ME OUT ANYMORE, BUT ELEVATORS AND HEIGHTS CAUSE ULTIMATE PANIC IN ME
SO CHRISTMAS WAS LOVELY THE GIRLS GOT PLENTY OF LOVE AND TOYS, ALBERTS FAMILY TRAVELED FROM SAN DIEGO THAT WAS REALLY FUN
NEW YEARS EVE THE FOUR OF US WENT DOWN TOWN TO THE FESTIVITIES OF SAINT GEORGE IT WAS FREEZING COLD, SO WE DIDN'T STAY FOR FIRE WORKS ALBERT GOT SPARKLERS AT THE STORE WE CAME HOME AND ACTUALLY STAYED UP TILL MIDNIGHT
MY NEW YEARS RESOLUTION IS THE BIGGEST I'VE HAD YET I PLAN ON GETTING MY DRIVERS LISENCE B Y SEPTEMBER WHICH WILL BE MY 30TH BIRTHDAY AFTER MY STROKE I WAS SO EXCITED FOR MY 30TH KNOWING HOW MUCH STRONGER I WOULD BE BY THEN I WAS RIGHT I STILL HAVE A MILLION THINGS I WANT TO DO OR THINGS I MISS SO MUCH, BUT I ALSO KNOW I HAVE ACOMPLISHED INCREDABLE THINGS IN THE TIME SINCE MY BRAIN BROKE, SO THIS YEAR IS MY YEAR TO PROVE MYSELF TO ME
MY ARM MAKES ME NUTS TO HAVE IT HANG THERE IS A CONSTANT UPSET TO ME ALTHOUGH I COULD NEVER GIVE UP HOPE OF GETTING IT BACK TO WORK IT'S EXTREMELY SLOW AND DIFFICULT, BUT I HAVE GAINED 4 MUSCLE MOVEMENTS IN IT WITH BIO FEEDBACK SESSIONS
I T HAD OCCURED TO ME ONE DAY THAT WHAT IF GODS WILL WAS TO LEAVE ME ONE SIDED FOR LIFE, AND I HAVE ALWAYS HAD TRUST IN GOD, BUT THAT THOUGHT DISTURBED ME, SO I TOLD TERESA, AND SHE SAID IF THAT WAS HIS PLAN HOW WOULD I FIND THIS AWSOME THERAPY THAT JUST HAPPENED TO BE ONE OF 17 IN THE COUNTRY IN MY SMALL TOWN THAT BROUGHT ME SMALL COMFORT
AS I START ANOTHER NEW YEAR OF RECOVERY I HAVE HIGH HOPES AND GOALS TO REACH
I AM GRATEFUL FOR ALL THE PRAYERS AND HELP I HAVE AND STILL DO RECIEVE
GOD BLESS, AND LOVE TO ALL
FROM TAMI