Friday, October 14, 2011

ADJUSTED

I HAVE BEEN NOTICING THESE PAST FEW WEEKS, THAT FINALLY AFTER 3 YEARS I HAVE FINALLY BECOME VERY PEACEFUL WITH MYSELF, AND MY "SPECIAL FEATURES"
JUST THE OTHER DAY I REALIZED THAT THERE ARE ONLY 3 THINGS THAT I HAVEN'T ACCOMPLISHED YET FROM MY PREVIOUS LIFE,
-1. DRIVING
-2. WORKING
-3. BRAIDING HAIR
BESIDES THESE THINGS I CAN NOW DO EVERYTHING I USED TO, THIS REALIZATION, WAS QUITE REWARDING TO MYSELF, YES THERE ARE THINGS THAT I'VE HAD TO LEARN DIFFERENTLY, BUT I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED THEM ANYWAY, CONSIDERING WHERE I CAME FROM, THIS IS PRETTY REMARKABLE, I STILL REALLY DESPISE MY LEFT ARM, AND CHOOSE TO TAKE A BREAK FROM THE BIOFEEDBACK, I KNOW I CAN GO BACK WHENEVER I FEEL READY TO, BUT I HAD REACHED A POINT WHERE THE PROGRESS WAS SO MINIMAL, I WAS JUST GETTING TO DISAPPOINTED IN MYSELF THAT I NEEDED TO EASE THAT STRESS, SO I HAVEN'T BEEN IN AT LEAST 6 MONTHS, BUT SURPRISINGLY I HAVE NOTICED TINY MUSCLE DEVELOPMENT ANYWAY NOTHING OF USE BUT ITS STILL THERE, I'M NOT GIVING UP BY ANY MEANS MEARLY WORKING ON IT MY OWN. MY P.T. ASSURES ME THAT WHATEVER MY MUSCLES DID LEARN THEY WILL NEVER FORGET, SO I DON'T LOOSE ANY PROGRESS. BUT I NOTICED THAT BY TAKING THE TIME OFF IT SEEMED TO RELIEVE SOME OF MY DISCOURAGMENT I WAS FEELING BY NOT GETTING IT TO WORK, AFTER TRYING SO HARD FOR SO LONG NOT TO MENTION THE MONEY THAT I'M NOT SPENDING ON IT
GOD BLESS, TRULY TAMI