Monday, September 6, 2010

befriending my sad hand.

I HAVE BEEN NOTICING THAT MY SAD HAND IS MORE RELAXED THAN IT HAS BEEN IN 2 YEARS. IT USUALLY STAYS IN A FIST, SO FRIDAY MORNING I MANAGED TO PAINT MY FINGER NAILS ON THAT HAND. ITS PRETTY COMPLICATED TRYING TO GET EACH FINGER PAINTED BEFORE IT CLENCHES UP AGAIN.
I DID GET IT DONE THOUGH, IN A BRIGHT RED. I HAVE NOTICED THAT IT DOESN'T LOOK AS ALIEN TO ME NOW, SINCE THEY LOOK ALMOST NORMAL PAINTED. I SHOULD HAVE PAINTED THEM LONG AGO.
MY ARM IS ATTACHED, BUT HAS NO CONNECTION TO ME ANY MORE, BUT ODDLY, SEEING IT WITH PAINTED LADY NAILS MAKES ME NOT HATE IT QUITE AS MUCH. LIKE A KID THAT'S A BRAT, BUT TOO CUTE TO HATE. FUNNY HOW SUCH A SMALL THING MADE A DIFFERENCE TO ME.
I GO IN FOR A VERY INTENSE VISION TEST TOMORROW. THEN WITH HOPE, I CAN LOOK INTO GETTING MY NEW INDOOR SHADES. MY DOC HAS CHOSEN A SPECIAL KIND OF PINK LENSES THAT ARE SPECIFICALLY FOR HEADACHE PREVENTION, DUE TO MY ISSUES WITH BRIGHT LIGHTS.
YESTERDAY WE WENT TO THE MOUNTAINS TO SPEND THE DAY. WITHIN HOURS I COULD TELL I WAS GETTING SICK FROM THE BRIGHT SUNLIGHT. I TRIED TO HIDE IN THE TRAILERS FOR DARKNESS. IT WASN'T WORKING, SO I HAD TO HAVE ALBERT TAKE ME HOME. A TWO HOUR DRIVE HOME WITH MASSIVE MIGRAINE PAIN! TIME FOR THE PITCH-BLACK, WRAP AROUND, OLD PEOPLE, GLASSES FOR ME.

ALL THE JOYS OF LIFE BEFORE MY 30'S
GOD BLESS
TAKE CARE
LOVE TAMI

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