HAPPY RE-BIRTHDAY TO ME

*** 3 YEARS OF MY NEW LIFE AUGUST 31ST WAS MY SURVIVOR ANNIVERSARY, IN 3 YEARS I HAVE COME SO FAR I WENT FROM BEING AS COMPETENT AS A 1 YEAR OLD,TO BECOMING A STAY-AT-HOME MOM TO MY BEAUTIFUL ANGELS
I STILL HAVE A LONG WAY TO GO TO BE WHERE I WANT TO BE, BUT I AM DOING PRETTY DAMN AWESOME FOR A "SPECIALTY WOMAN", I CANT SAY I'M HAPPY IN THIS BODY, BUT I AM GETTING BETTER AT JUST BEING COMFORTABLE, I'M HOPING AS ALWAYS THAT IF I JUST GET TO COMFORTABLE IN THIS BODY, GOD MIGHT THINK I'VE LEARNED WHATEVER LESSON HE'S TEACHING ME, AND CAN CROSS MY NAME OFF THE TO DO LIST WISHFUL THINKING I KNOW
JUST 2 NIGHTS AGO MY FAMILY TOOK ME TO AN AMPHITHEATER FOR A SHOW, AND I WAS STRUGGLING WALKING DOWN THE STEEP STAIRS TO MY SEAT, AND I TOLD MY UNCLE "THAT I WANTED TO SCREAM", CUZ I JUST WANT TO BE NORMAL AGAIN, HE SAID INSTANTLY, " HEY BE HAPPY YOU CAN DO THIS MUCH" HE'S EXACTLY RIGHT SOME DAYS I LOOSE TRACK OF SIMPLE THINGS LIKE THAT, I WAS GRATEFUL TO BE AT LEAST THAT GOOD, CONSIDERING, 3 YEARS AGO DOCTORS DIDN'T TRUST ME TO BREATHE ON MY OWN, WELL NEENER NEENER DOCS THEY DIDN'T KNOW WHO THEY WERE DEALING WITH, I HAVE MANY INCREDIBLE GUARDING ANGELS WITH ME DAILY
BOTH MY BABIES STARTED SCHOOL LAST MONTH HOW DID THAT HAPPEN SO FAST, I GET TO WALK LILLI TO HER SCHOOL,BUT I MAKE SURE TO HOLD MY HEAD HIGH AND SMILE TO ANYONE THAT MIGHT STARE, I KNOW ITS JUST CURIOSITY, I KNOW WITHOUT A DOUBT THAT BECAUSE OF THIS, MY GIRLS ARE SO COMPATIONATE
GOD BLESS ALL
LOVE TAMI